Yesterday, I was driving, and suddenly, I was overwhelmed with the need to cry, hot tears stinging my eyes. I dabbed at my eyes with my sleeve, and tried to continue talking nonchalantly with the kids as I chaffeured. I hoped they wouldn't notice, and they never seemed to.
How weird, I mused. I wonder why? I'd been perfectly fine, and then, bam! Tears!
Then today, I was watching a movie. A romantic comedy of all things. I don't usually dig chick flicks, but this one had me howling with laughter, watching certain scenes over and over, because it was that damn funny.
The next thing I knew, I was bent over double, racked with sobbing. A few tears came out and I just kept wailing and crying, but the whole episode probably lasted less than 5 seconds. As I dried my eyes, I wondered, Why am I crying?
Then, just like that, the tears dried up.
I really don't know or understand why. It's not "that time of the month". I wasn't thinking about anything even the slightest bit depressing or distressing. The second time I was in the midst of laughter when it happened. I don't know what emotion is bubbling up, or why it chooses the oddest times to do so.
I'm not worried about my sanity or mental health. Just honestly perplexed by these sudden outbursts that have all the unpredictibility and intensity of a summer storm. I'd hoped that by writing about it, I'd glean some insight as to why, but I'm still just as confused as when I'd begun.
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